Whenthefinalsunsetcomes,willIbeabletowalkawayknowingIhadcompletelyenjoyedthedaysofmylife?Ioftenfindmyselfthinkingandreflecting.However,attheendofitall,Irealizethatmyfearaboutthefutureisnothavingafuture.

　　I'mworriedthatintheblink1ofaneyemylifewouldend.Iwouldnothaveexperiencedeverythinglifehastoofferoraccomplishedallmygoals.Mylifewouldbelivedwithouteverhavingapurpose.Ineedtolivealifewithapurpose,thepurposeofimprovingandimpacting2others'lives.Idon'twanttoclosemyeyes,withthemillionsofthingsinmylifeleftundone,notexperienced,notachieved,runningendlesslyuntilmylastbreathisapainfulregret.

　　Ihavenotyetbroughtjoytomyparents.Themanyexpectationstheyhaveformehavenotbeenmet.Iwanttomakethemproud;thelovetheyhavegivenmeisbeyondwords.Tobringhappinesstothembyfulfillingtheexpectationstheyhaveforme,willbethefirststepinlivingafulfilledlife.

　　IhavenotyetbecometherolemodelIwanttobeformyyoungersiblings3.Iwanttobethepersontheylookupto,thepersonthattheyturntoforguidance.However,Ihavenotyetbeenthroughenoughoflife'shardshipstobewiseenoughtogivethemtheadvicetheyneed.Ilovetheinnocenceintheirsmiles,butIalsoknowwithtimethatwillfade.Iwanttobethepersonwhoprotectsthemandtheonewhoshowsthemtherightwaywhenthey'relostinpeer4pressureortheirowndepression.

　　Ihavenotyetexperiencedtruefriendship.Lifehasgivenmemanyfriends,butitseemedwithtime,peoplechangedandsodidtherelationships.Friends,itseems,comeandgo.Ivaluefriendship,butsofarinlife,distanceoranotherfactoralwayscomesinthewayofmaintainingafriendship.

　　Ihavenotyethadmyheartbroken.IwanttolivelifeuntilIamabletobeinlove.Iwanttobeabletotrustaboyenoughtogivehimmyheart,andyetnotbeafraidtogetitbroken.Iwanttofeelthewarmthofbeinginloveandthesorrowsofhavingmyheartbroken.Ifearmyfuturewillnevercome,mylifeendingunfinished.Iamnotreadyformyfinalsunset.Iwanttocontinuemydaysinthesun,toexperiencethehappinessofthesunshineandthepainofthesunburn.Mylifeisnotreadytoend;itisbarelybeginning.Ihavejuststartedtolearnthemeaningoflife,mywantsandneeds,mygoalsanddreams.Iwanttobeabletolivelongenoughtoliveafulfilledlife,alifethatwillberemembered,alifethatmadeanimpact.Asofnow,Iamenjoyingthesunrise,hopingthesunsetwillcomewhenIwillbeabletowalkawayknowingIcompletelyenjoyedthedaysofmylife.

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