howilostmyfriends

　　IhavebeengettingmoreandmorefrustratedeverydaywakingupknowingIhavenofriends.Itwasn'talwayslikethis.Istillrememberelementaryschoolandhowawesomeandacceptingeveryonewasbackthen.Imissmyelementaryschooldaysbecausetheworldstillhadsomemysteryleftinit.Ihadplentyoffriends,schoolwasactuallyfun,andIdidn'thavetoworryaboutjobsormoney.DuringthattimeperiodImetoneofthetwopeopleIconsideredoneofmybestfriends.Goingtodifferentmiddleschoolsruinedthatfriendshiphowever.Speakingofmiddleschool,thatiswhereeverythingturnedtocrapforme.IwasnolongerpopularlikeIwasinelementaryschoolandeveryonebecamealotlessaccepting.Imettwopeopletherethatbecamemyfriends.Unfortunatelytheylikedtohangoutwitheachothermorethanme.Iwasalwaysthethirdwheel.OneofthemditchedmewhenhestartedtohangoutwithagroupofpeopleIratherdisliked.Theotherstoppedsittingwithmeatlunch.Thecowardsimplylefttositwithsomeotherswithoutsomuchasawordtome.Istilldon'tunderstandwhy.Iwasalwaysnicetothemandalwaysinvitedthemover.Theonegoodthingabout6thgradewasmeetingprobablythebestfriendIhaveeverhad.Welikedthesamethingssuchasvideogamesandmovies.Aninterestingthingabouthimwasthathewasactuallyquitepopularatschoolbuthechosetohangoutwithme.HescrewedmethoughbystartingtoinviteotherfriendsoverwhenIwasathishouse.Reallymademeangry.What,I'mnotgoodenoughtoholdyourattention?Hesoonpickedupdrughabitsfromthesesocalledfriendsofhisandofficiallyditchedme.ByjunioryearofhighschoolIwassittingbymyselfatlunchlikealoser.Infact,Ididn'tevenhaveonefriendtowalkwithathighschoolgraduation.Theprincipalactuallyhadto"assign"someonewhohadjustmovedtomytowntowalkwithme.Iamnow20andhaven'tmadeasinglenewfriendyet.ThisisreallydepressingtoactuallytypethestoryofhowfarIhavefallen.Ijustdon'tunderstand,I'mnotugly,don'tdodrugs,wearniceclothes,ect.IjustDON'Ttalktoanyone.Sorryforthelongstory,anyoneelsehaveasimilarone?