Mumit’sme.HopefullythisMotheringSundayyouwillgettohearthosethreewords.Iwillofcoursetrytophoneyou.Ihopewewillbeabletospeakfortheallowed10minutes.ButIsuspectmanyinmateswillbeusingthephonesoi

　　Mumit’sme.HopefullythisMotheringSundayyouwillgettohearthosethreewords.Iwillofcoursetrytophoneyou.Ihopewewillbeabletospeakfortheallowed10minutes.ButIsuspectmanyinmateswillbeusingthephonesoifIdon’tcallandifwedon’tspeakthenthisiswhatIwouldhavesaid:

　　It’snotyourfaultthatIamhere.Iknowthatdeepinyourheartyouhavequestionedwhethermycurrentcircumstanceissomehowyourfaultiftherecklessstupidityofmypastissomehowafailureonyourpart.Itisnot.Onlyonepersonistoblameonlyonepersonshouldhurt—me.Youhavealwaystaughtmethatwhentheroomgoesdarkyoucanwaitforthelightstobeswitchedbackonoryoucansearchinthedarkandturnthelightonyourself.Youaremylight.Youalwayshavebeenandalwayswillbe.ThereisnobodyIadmiremorenobodyIhavestrivedhardertopleaseinmylifewhichiswhymycurrentfailurehurtsmesomuch.

　　IamsosorrythatIwillnotbetheretoseeyoubutIwantyoutoknowthatnowasalwaysyouareherewithme.Inmydarkesthoursandinthecoldestlonelinessofmypastfewmonthsmymindhassooftenwanderedtothepasttowhenitwasyouandme—andIhavebeenabletosmile.YoursisthestrengththatIdrawupon.

　　Aparent’sjobistomakesurethattheypassonthebestofthemselvestotheirchildren.Youhavedonethat.Itistheinneryouinmethatwillgetmethroughthis.

　　Ihavefailedyousoepicallybutyouhaveneverfailedme.IfIthinkbacktothetearsIshedwhenDadleftallthoseyearsagoIseeyouthroughtheirmistyglaze.Youholdingmeandyoutellingmewe’dbeOKandwewillbe.Weareandalwayswillbethebestteam.

　　Childhoodheroessuchasfootballersactorsandrockstarsareclichéd.Ifthejob’sdonerightachild’sheroesshouldbetheirparents—youaremine.ThestrengthyoushowedafterthedivorcefromDadtofindyourbiologicalparentstogotouniversityandgetyourteachingqualificationstobeginyourlifeagainisthestrengththatIdrawonnow.ItisthebeliefinmyselfitisthebeliefyouhaveinmethattellsmethatonceIamreleasedIcanandwillrebuildmylife.Iwillmakeyouproudagain.Iwillmakeyouhappytohavemeasyourson.Yoursisthewillthatgetsmethrougheveryday.

　　Idon’tbelieveyoucanjudgeapersonforthemistakestheymakeasweallmakethembutyoucanjudgethemforw